What could have been...
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Today would have been a day I could have looked down into my arms as I cradled our new born son. I could have gazed into the eyes of a child dependent on me. I could have seen the future and the blessings coming our way. I could have rocked our sweet prince and told him how much I loved him. Together Pernell and I would dream, hope and be blessed by the creation God had provided for us.
Today I look down in my arms and rock the emptiness, lost dreams, and could have beens. I gaze into nothing but grief and pain. Pernell and I hold each other and realize there is not that future we had dreamed of.
I struggle through today with the hope of tomorrow, the gift of a supportive and strong husband, blessings I have in the three living children God has given me, and knowing that I will be rocked in the arms of my heavenly father as I shed tears and try and heal my heart.
Today I will worry about getting to tomorrow... tomorrow I will see farther ahead... and hopefully down the road I will feel the rays of healing on my face and the possibilities of the future.
Rest in peace wee son.
Today I look down in my arms and rock the emptiness, lost dreams, and could have beens. I gaze into nothing but grief and pain. Pernell and I hold each other and realize there is not that future we had dreamed of.
I struggle through today with the hope of tomorrow, the gift of a supportive and strong husband, blessings I have in the three living children God has given me, and knowing that I will be rocked in the arms of my heavenly father as I shed tears and try and heal my heart.
Today I will worry about getting to tomorrow... tomorrow I will see farther ahead... and hopefully down the road I will feel the rays of healing on my face and the possibilities of the future.
Rest in peace wee son.
oh Margie, how beautifully stated. You are in my thoughts and prayers today.
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