Today
Monday, March 13, 2006Today I know the tears that fall are healing.
Today I am okay with hurting,
and realize that healing hurts.
I realize feeling empty is normal or just who I am today.
I know I am full in so many ways, yet today I hunger for something.
It is right to cry, right to sit, right to just need quiet.
Today is the day I can cry when I fit into my clothes,
cry when I don't, and cry just because I cry.
It is today that I can breathe again.
I know that living is okay, and death is incomprehensible.
Empty is not only physical but mental as well.
Family is not related by blood alone
and healing can come through the prayers of a child.
Today is the day I start being alive again.
Today is the day I weep, yet can find time to smile,
and think about laughing again.
It is today that I can breathe again.
Healing through the prayers of my friends and family.
Hurting with those who mourn with me.
Watching as my beloved husband weeps.
Today I watch a strong man become weak.
Today I stand in the embrace of my husband,
healing together, hurting together, growing closer,
feeling each other's pain and knowing each other deeper.
It is today that I can breathe again.
Today I see God more clearly.
Today I feel God as he holds me on his lap and rocks me.
Today I am His child, and I know he feels my pain.
As I wipe away my tears I know they mingle with the tears of God.
It is today that I can breathe again.
Beautiful Margie.
12:41 PM[My co-workers are sure to wonder why I am sitting here wiping away tears also]